Just cause..

So my mom had her surgery as scheduled and I didn't get to see her for almost 5 hours! and her surgery only took about 2! OMG I think I drove the receptionist mad because I was like.. have you heard anything about my mom I haven't heard anything in 5 hours and I just want to know where she is in this hospital! Well she was in the pacu, they had just took her out of the anesthesia and apparently my mom is a fighter with anesthesia because she was fighting with the nurse haha. But she's doing ok and she was in so much pain so I called Jackie, the Orthopedic Surgeon's nurse (they are both amazing) and told her she's in pain and they kept her overnight with a PCA pump so she can get morphine every hour/every time she pushed the button. It did make her feel better which is a good thing! I was able to pick her up the next day and take her home before work and she has been home since and she has pain.. but a different kind of pain, just like I had told her it was gonna be since her food would no longer be broken, but in place.. now comes the healing time! I took her to her follow up appointment this past wednesday and they took out her cast and whoa! she has 30 stitches in 3 sides of her foot! but they look beautiful! no infection.. it would be a nurse to say that stitches look beautiful!
Anyway... this month has been great. My marriage has gotten stronger and we have been showing each other love like when we first got together. I did tell Mark we needed to focus on each other but it was really me that was just being an ass and not wanting to spend any time with him and ignoring him and always picking a fight.. I was very mean and I talked to my mom about it and she was telling me that it was indeed wrong of me to treat him that way and I'm glad I slapped myself back to reality.. is like hey Jen, you have a great husband.. who doesn't turn his head not even once to look at another woman, has stuck with you and will continue to stick with you during the whole infertility ordeal, who treats you right! what more do you want!?! Exactly.. what more do I want is what I asked myself.. Answer is: nothing, I have everything I can ask for already.. I want a baby and have a family with him... but well.. with time. right?!