So today marks CD 28. I honestly cannot say when AF is supposed to show because my cycles are so irregular.. heck I just don't know! I wish I did though. God? help! lol. Anyway... So this cycle I did the clomid... I've also been complaint with my meds.. minus one day which I just honestly forgot to take my medicine.. bad bad bad!! I did clomid cd 4-8... as recommended by my doctor.. I don't exactly know when I ovulated because I tested for ovulation CD 10/11/12 in which CD 12 it was almost positive, then I tested CD 15/16. I didn't test CD 13-14 but honestly... it just didn't cross my mind.. CD 13 happened to be November 15.. which marked our 4 year anniversary and I just didn't want to ruin our special evening together testing for ovulation and well... killing the mood! haha. So in all fareness.. I have a legitimate excuse! I did have horrible side effects (in my husband's opinion) while on clomid.. I would just cry and cry like a baby it was rather ridiculous.. it came to a point where he was like.. what is wrong with you! and I said I DON'T KNOW! Help me! lol. and he would just hug me and console me.. darn hormones! darn clomid! Clomid drives me so crazy! So i'm sitting here patiently waiting.. out of nowhere my nipples started hurting.. like just the nipples.. usually after clomid and I ovulate.. I just get sore breasts.. but this time around is just my nipples and my breasts look full... I fit my bra cup wonderfully hehe. ;) Then we went to Olive Garden the other day because I told him I wanted soup and salad, at first we were gonna go to Souper Salad but the Souper Salad close to us is kinda yuck so we went to OG. Well.. I got a chicken gnocchi and ate that.. but I had like 3 plates of salad.. but mostly because I just wanted all those darn banana peppers. I think I ate like 5 of them.. and I kept wanting more I wanted to just hunt inside the salad bowl and look for them haha.. luckily the waitress we had wasn't stingy with those banana peppers.. and there were amazingly delicious!! We also made some pizza last night with pineapple which is my favorite and just randomly the pineapple smelled what I think is blood ? and yea.. I didn't eat it.. my husband is like you are wierd you always eat pizza like this.. well not this time! So the entire night that I was at work.. I was just sick to my stomach it sucked! and I am also very tired which I was telling Mark this is wierd because I know I slept alot the night before since I know I have to be up all morning on wednesdays because of school. So anyway.. those are just my random thoughts... NO I really do not think I am pregnant.. being TTC for 4 years you learn to not think any little thing that happens to you is a symptom to pregnancy.. because well.. Clomid can give you the same pregnancy-like symptoms as well which results in a lot of disappointment!! I did pray and pray to God that this be our time.. let it be.. so now.. I don't know when I should test... honestly I don't know if I even want to.. I'm such a wuss.. but I don't like testing.. I hate seeing negative!! so I think i'll just let my patience ride out and make an appointment with the doctor. If im not pregnant.. well im not.. just another month of failure.. and here's to the new year in hopes that Baby G will make its arrival for 2012. Praying for it at least..
So I guess if I am not pregnant... the doc might have us do another round of clomid... I am not sure.. I am honestly leaning more towards a IUI.. but I mean... he's the doctor, not me.. so we shall see!
Wish us luck and keep praying for us while we undergo this TTC journey!
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