I'm not a normal girl

So I don't know why I always tend to freak the hell out prior to a doctors visit. First of all this is the first doctors visit I have had in what?? 6 months! Ok ok so maybe is not that long ago but still... As of now.. I no longer take medications like I used to in El Paso... I have managed to keep my weight from going up which is a good thing believe me on that one.. I'm really trying to lose weight.. I've managed to not gain so lets work on actually losing the weight now.. I don't think I can count carbs.. I'm highly considering doing Weight Watchers.. It worked for me in the past... Maybe it can work again.. I just need to get dedicated to it.. which is something I lack on but I will do it because oh God I HATE the way I look.. Yes I now have really horrible self esteem issues... which was something I haven't had in a long time!!!! Oh what else.. oh one major thing.. we are no longer TTC. What for!? I cannot dwell on it... and constantly think ohh please I hope I am pregnant.. lets face it... I have PCOS. I'm obviously overweight due to PCOS and all the years of not eating as healthy as an athlete.. and come on... reality check.. my ovaries are broken!
So here's what I think my doctor is going to do... well I'm going to request!
1. Pap Smear because mine is long overdue!!
2. Lab Work... I'm talking about the works.. I want a BMP, H1AC, Lipid Panel, TSH, Hepatic Panel... etc etc.. but I know those are my main ones.
3. What the heck are they going to do about me not getting a period.. I obviously want one so I can regulate!
4. Diet Regimen.. which one can work best for me.. with everything I have..
5. Help me keep my sanity in line!
Ok... I think that's about it.. for now.. I know I freak out alot.. which is something I can cure myself.. hello!!! CALM THE FUCK DOWN MS. JENNIFER! haha. but anyway.. so I think my thyroid is caput... I'm assuming low levels.. I'm assuming high levels of bad lipids.. boo.. we'll see what happens..
Ohh.. and maybe she can give me a prescription for all my medications so I can start taking them again.. because honestly I am just so tired!!! Like before I started taking my meds.. I just want to sleep.. which is no bueno my life is passing by while my eyes are just shut and into La la land! oh and most importantly.. my inhaler!!! Because Lord knows I need it!! Damn lungs.. you guys have to fail me too. SMH

Thanks for reading! :)