I don't find the need to do a recap of 2010. It was a good year, I finished school, visited Washington DC and same ol same ol. I don't see a point in bringing up past issues... But instead focus on today and think about the future. My future.. I'm nervous I don't know what my future holds but I sure hope is for the better.
I finally have a doctors appointment with an obgyn. I'm expecting some good news or something among those lines.. More like some hope. I can't set my expectations from a doctor so high because I too have to do my part. We want a baby so much and we have been Tcc since 2008. I came to find out I have PCOS. We suffer from infertility. A couple weeks ago my doc said just lose some weight, try your hardest and the side effects of pcos will decrease and it will increase your chances. So my task to myself. My appointment is in two weeks. Im going to try my hardest to lose 10 lbs... Hey that's a start right? I've lost a total of 8 so far so I know I can do it. I will even put pictures on my fridge of pregnant ladies and newborn babies to motivate me.
My husband and I seem to be getting along more today. He knows now he can't blame me for everything in his life. Today he felt more at ease too because a certain someone at work gave him some hope for his career. I don't want to get ahead of myself because is not definite but ill just leave it up to God and pray this does happen. <fingers crossed>
Even though I feel like a failure for not passing this nursing ati for the 4th time, I won't allow myself to give up. I cannot give up this is my career! I need this to set a foundation for our future. We are in this together I can't expect him to work and me just sit at home and be a bum, nor do I want to! I REFUSE!
One thing that really just ticks me off... Is when someone who is married is out with other people of the opposite sex, going out on dates and doing only God knows what! Seriously?? Have some respect for yourself! If you can't respect yourself and set boundaries no one will respect you.. And trust me, that's no way to even start a new relationship with someone.. Let alone when you are still tied to someone else. Is just not right. But hey this is just my opinion. Some people will just never learn.
Lastly, I dont know what the hell is wrong with my dog Butters but he is driving me INSANE! He just sits there and cries.. seriously you are not a puppy anymore. I just need to vent this out because if I dont I might just kill him... ok not really I'm just tired of his whining!
So for today:
Play with fire, you're gonna get burned.
Bunch of grenades!
I finally have a doctors appointment with an obgyn. I'm expecting some good news or something among those lines.. More like some hope. I can't set my expectations from a doctor so high because I too have to do my part. We want a baby so much and we have been Tcc since 2008. I came to find out I have PCOS. We suffer from infertility. A couple weeks ago my doc said just lose some weight, try your hardest and the side effects of pcos will decrease and it will increase your chances. So my task to myself. My appointment is in two weeks. Im going to try my hardest to lose 10 lbs... Hey that's a start right? I've lost a total of 8 so far so I know I can do it. I will even put pictures on my fridge of pregnant ladies and newborn babies to motivate me.
My husband and I seem to be getting along more today. He knows now he can't blame me for everything in his life. Today he felt more at ease too because a certain someone at work gave him some hope for his career. I don't want to get ahead of myself because is not definite but ill just leave it up to God and pray this does happen. <fingers crossed>
Even though I feel like a failure for not passing this nursing ati for the 4th time, I won't allow myself to give up. I cannot give up this is my career! I need this to set a foundation for our future. We are in this together I can't expect him to work and me just sit at home and be a bum, nor do I want to! I REFUSE!
One thing that really just ticks me off... Is when someone who is married is out with other people of the opposite sex, going out on dates and doing only God knows what! Seriously?? Have some respect for yourself! If you can't respect yourself and set boundaries no one will respect you.. And trust me, that's no way to even start a new relationship with someone.. Let alone when you are still tied to someone else. Is just not right. But hey this is just my opinion. Some people will just never learn.
Lastly, I dont know what the hell is wrong with my dog Butters but he is driving me INSANE! He just sits there and cries.. seriously you are not a puppy anymore. I just need to vent this out because if I dont I might just kill him... ok not really I'm just tired of his whining!
So for today:
Play with fire, you're gonna get burned.
Bunch of grenades!
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